Surprised by Joy

I am always surprised that from very inauspcious Christian beginnings, I am a still a Christian today (some twelve years later).

I first prayed to God by asking Him for a bargain, joined a Christian community for the free cordial, textbooks and tutoring, and went to church from a sense of obligation and obedience. From these selfish, legalistic beginnings, God has been able to show me the joy of being a Christian! In addition to the bargain I first made, and the free cordial, textbooks and tutoring (all of which were duly delivered) I also have the freedom and assurance of eternity with God - starting with the Holy Spirit in me now! I have a church community which encourages me to grow, and several online communities also, the Word of God for learning, the Holy Spirit for guidance and comfort, and a life full of purpose and good words prepared in advance for me to do!

There were so many things I worried about before becoming a Christian, but I never anticipated the joy! (There is sorrow too, but that's another post.) God blesses me with His joy and peace, which is not dependent on my circumstances. He gives me His ear, and as His child I can come before His throne. The Holy Spirit convicts, reminds, guides and occasionally speaks in me. I have joy when I least expected it - when forgiving, when exercising self-discipline, when sitting in silence. Truly, if I only stop to see it, Jesus came to give me life and joy in abundance!